Have you ever lived far away from home and had the little things from home mean that much more to see? Like when I was in San Francisco I would get so excited when I saw a Mass liscence plate, or a Red Sox hat. Every time I saw one I would get excited, even the first few days I would be visiting Massachusettes. "Oh look, someone wearing a Red Sox hat, how cool.... Oh wait. We're in Boston."
Well I'm getting that exciting feeling in the same way. That's how I feel when I see white people. I have to remind myself I'm back in America now.
I thought I'd be freaking out a lot about the cost of everything. Because compared to Thailand everything is so expensive. But I've been doing really well. Maybe American dollars still feel a little like play money, the way Thai Baht did when I first arrived in Thailand. Maybe everything is just a little surreal so it's ok to spend because this all feels like a vaction or just not real life.
I've been doing pretty well about not speaking Thai (at least outloud). When I pass someone or bump someome I instinctually start to say "Kaw toad ka" which means 'excuse me.' It feels good to still be instinctually Thai. It will be sad when I say "excuse me" automatically.
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